It’s the Sunday after high school graduation. I’m getting ready for church with Ashley and McKenzie, wearing my bright yellow cotton shirt with a layered pink tank top. Today is a special Sunday, you know why? It’s our first time attending the young single adults’ ward! We are so old! We get to start going to church with all the college students!
When I walk in the building, my heart begins pounding. I scan the room and spot a familiar face in the very back row. It’s my older brother with a chair saved just for me. I inch through the crowd and take my seat as quietly and discretely as possible.
The young man sitting directly in front of me turns around immediately. “Who do we have here, Adam?” he asks with a smile.
“Mitch, this is my little sister, Jesse.”
He reached for my hand and gave it a solid handshake. “Welcome to the singles’ ward, Jesse. It’s nice to meet you.”
And that was how it began…
December 31st, 2008
The New Year’s countdown has begun!
10… 9… 8…
I wonder if tonight’s the night! If it will finally happen! Maybe Mitch will be my New Years kiss! Our first kiss! How exciting!
Where is Mitch anyway? I don’t see him anywhere. He was here just a second ago.
There’s no way I have been reading his cues wrong this whole time. I’m pretty sure he likes me. Where is he? He has to…
3… 2… 1!
Nope. He just lept off the stage and tackled the piñata in the middle of the gym. There is candy everywhere. Yikes! That had to hurt. He just superman’ed to the hard floor with, like, six feet of air.
*SIGH* …Maybe next time
August 2nd, 2008
There is no way I can finish my breakfast this morning. My stomach is too distracted twisting in knots and butterflies. I take a deep breath and look in the mirror.
“Today is just a normal day,” I tell myself. “Just hanging out with Mitchell like I do every single day… except I’m wearing a wedding dress.”
I feel a beautiful peace as I walk through the temple. Everything is quiet, and my heart is calm. I have most definitely made the right decision. Mitch and I are going to be so unbelievably happy.
I look into his eyes as we are sealed for time and all eternity. We are surrounded by our loving family and friends. There is no other place on this earth that I would rather be than right here, right now, with my best friend. Nothing could possibly get any better than this!
I close my eyes in pain, afraid to look and see the results. I already know the answer. It will look the same as it has every month. I don’t know why I even put myself through this anymore.
Somehow I find the strength to peel open my tightly shut eyelids. And I am greeted by something unfamiliar and new. Two purple lines. My mind freezes, unable to grasp the registering information.
My heart begins to melt the ice-cold prison it has locked itself in for years and I realize it’s for real this time. I am not imagining this! We finally did it! We are finally going to have a baby!
Somehow I hold in the excitement wanting to burst inside of me as Mitchell walks in the door after work. I ask him casually about his day and what happened, unable to concentrate on anything but keeping myself from grinning too widely.
We are sitting on the couch together and the moment finally comes. “I’M PREGNANT!” I scream and pour a giant jar of skittles on top of his head. I didn’t have any confetti in the house, so I had to improvise.
Tears*tears*tears*hugs*and some more tears*
I can’t believe we made this little soul together. When he is born we will be able to call him ours and show him how to love others the way we have always tried to love each other.
My life has been magnificent from the second Mitchell stepped into it! How fast the time does go!
I love you, Mitchell, with all of my heart! Everyday I think there is no way I could possibly love you more than I do at that second, and the day after I always prove myself wrong and the affection in my heart grows even more. I ache for you when you're gone. I feel safest when I'm in your arms. Thank you for every second of every day and the joy you have poured into my world. Happy SEVENTH wedding anniversary!